My friend has challenged me to a duel! The best kind of duel!
We are to write in our blogs once a week.
OK, so a billion years ago (not that long, really) I fell in love with a “taken” man. And that never culminated into anything, so I fell in love with another “taken” man. ‘Those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it’ they say. This one did result in a relationship. It didn’t end well…lol
Because at first, you see, I convince myself that I will not get serious about said “taken” man, I’m only here for the vo-de-o-do. After awhile, however, I begin to resent the time and energy spent away from me. Meanwhile, he’s thinking he has it made, and only beginning to wonder if I might be getting too attached.
His intuition is right, and I am getting way too attached. And I’ll tell you why. Deep down in my little girl soul I long and yearn for a true relationship with a man. I don’t want to admit it, but I do, and there is no cure for that.
So my anger starts to eat me, and I start ‘picking away’ at this man. He starts to wonder why he even went there with me, and starts appreciating his significant other more. From there, it’s either a long, slow death spiral, or someone gets merciful and ends the agony quickly.
Either way, I lose. I lose a relationship that I invested in, I lose the man, and I lose a little self respect. I wrote this down in the hopes that I don’t repeat my history. Wish me luck…I’m not perfect!